You know what most people do...
they suppress their anger and one day... it explodes! So my advice is... store up that rage. Store it up for a few months... then you will explode!!! Explode!!! BOOOOM!!!!! You can hate yourself all you want... but its them making you suffer... so... get a gun... suppress that rage... one day you'll get pushed around so much that there won't be any other option left but to push back! And when you're driven into a blinding rage... Blow 'em away!!! Blow them all away! Piss on their bullet riddled corpses! Shit in the crevices of their rotting cadavers! laugh at them! you beat them! they wont hurt you no more! you're more powerful than them! AHAHAHHAHAHHAHA!
and if you kill yourself... think of the best way of publicising it... maybe post it on here... I'd really enjoy it! Hehehehe!!!
Oh yeah... that music was really depressing and boring! Maybe if you stopped listening to it you would'nt be depressing and boring.